Chapter Four

God is Life

Words of Wisdom

A Course in Miracles
The light is in you. Darkness can cover it,
but cannot put it out.

A Course in Miracles
This world will change through you. No other means can save it.

A Course in Miracles
Yet what you do not realize, each time you choose, is that your choice is your evaluation of yourself.

A Course in Miracles
Make, then, your choice. But recognize that in this choice the purpose of the world you see is chosen.

A Course in Miracles
Purpose is of the mind. And minds can change
as they desire.

Step 4 ~ Responsibility

The step of Responsibility is when you take back control of the false beliefs that you know you accepted about yourself.

When you know you are responsible for having accepted the false beliefs, you can now take responsibility for them to do with them as you like.

The false beliefs are not in control of you any more, because you have the control.

When you know you're the one in control of the false beliefs, you will feel empowered and know that they are nothing to you unless you let those false beliefs mean something.

It can be difficult for some who have let these false beliefs run their life. But I want you to know that every time a false belief starts to take over your thoughts and feelings, you now know you can stand up to it and let it know who the boss is. And that boss is you.

Displaced False Beliefs

If you have people in your life who remind you of who you are based on false beliefs. Please know that these beliefs they have about you, are actually how they feel about themselves. You see, most people can only see in others what they can't see in themselves, and it's unfortunate that what they see are the negatives in others, but can't see that they have the same negatives.

These are the people who are so blind to seeing the huge beam in their own eye, but feel they need to point out everyone's else's beams. These are the people who do not want you to know that you are responsible for the false beliefs you may or may not have accepted about yourself, because then you are in control of your thoughts and feelings, not them.

It's a good idea to use spiritual protection as you work towards healing from false beliefs, which are nothing more than blocks that have been created to keep you from Being who you truly are. Which the true you is a Child of God, who is a co-creator, who was given the gift of Free-Will. God Loves you more than you can fathom, and when God see's you, God only see's Love. A person who is created out of Himself who is Love. You are Love.

When I said "You are Love" were you able to accept and take responsibility of the Truth about you? If you were unable to accept that, then the false beliefs you have about yourself are in control. You will know when you have taken back control over the false beliefs is when you know within yourself, and outside yourself that "You Are Love" and then you go on Being that Love of who you are.

Taking back Control

When I was working on healing myself of my past wounds, which I'm still finding things in my life that are due to false beliefs I accepted about myself from my past, but they are no where near how much I had before. I would say there is about 20% left to go before every false belief has been eradicated from my life.

But for most of all my life, I use to stuff my feelings and hide my feelings from people thinking that people don't care how I feel, or people would take how I was feeling and use those feelings against me in some way, or belittle them and me at the same time. I had created this wall around me and would not let people in, I now know that wall was an ego I had built up around me to protect me from any more hurt that could come from others.

During the Spring of 2005, I learned that a person will not grow spiritually if they stuff their feelings, I decided then that I needed to heal myself of hiding my feelings and stuffing them. I wasn't sure if I even had any feelings other then being a happy go lucky person who would tell jokes and say whatever to get people to laugh. I always loved to hear people laugh and see them feeling good about themselves, and a laugh is something that helps to lighten people's spirits and lighten up their day. I was like that when I was little. But something happened and I wasn't able to let any other feelings show in my life, so I began stuffing those feelings.

And so to start my journey of going to work on healing myself from my past, I started trying to observe my feelings, and then looking into what thoughts I was having, or what I may have heard that struck certain feelings I was having. Then I started to look into the reasons why I would suppress them and not let people know how I was feeling.

It was also around that time when I began to give Mother Mary's Rosaries for myself, instead of for others only. It didn't take very long, before It felt as if every feeling I had ever stuffed came to surface, and it was so overwhelming that I felt at times I couldn't handle those feelings any more. It was to much and they came up way to fast. During that time, I did have good days, which to me were breaks, but then those painful feelings would surface again. They seemed to come out of no where.

I continued to give Mother Mary's rosaries, continued to use the spiritual tools I used at the time, and continued to work on the steps towards eradicating these false beliefs which carried over into these painful feelings that were coming up. I had to work on one false belief at a time until I was finally able to heal from it before continuing on to another one.

Even though I knew I was responsible for these false beliefs, the suppressed feelings were still very much in control of my life. But slowly I began to take control over those false beliefs, which was working on replacing one false belief at a time. And I was doing this while those feelings were still continuing to surface.

When your working on healing from these false beliefs, you want to know that you are the one who is in control, the conscious you is in control of them, even though at times you may feel out of control. This is when you fall back to step 2 of having the determination to follow through with healing from every false belief, no matter how they may make you feel. Eventually, you will have less and less of these false beliefs to replace and you will feel as though the weight of these false beliefs are being lifted off of you.

For me when the biggest weight that was lifted off of me was when I had this vision with Alpha and Omega, which I wrote about it in the Golden Age Vision. That was when the blessings started to manifest in my life and even though I had certain problems to deal with, they only affected one area of my life and not the whole of me.

It can be very hard to accept and take responsibility for ones false beliefs about themselves, but its part of the path of healing, it is one step towards healing yourself a 100%, until there are no more false beliefs left in you.

Responsibility is the 4th step on the path of healing oneself, so until you take responsibility for the false beliefs, you won't be able to continue on to the 5th step.