A new route on the same path

Posted: Tue Jun 09, 2009 1:33 pm Post subject: A new route on the same path

I felt the need to write about the paths I seem to have walked, and for reasons I feel are truth. And would like to hear about everyone elses.

As a young child I grew up being taught about Christianity the way the protestant church had shaped it, so I grew up with a Protestant mindset, but with being such a "tornado" as a child, religion never came to mind, as I was too busy burning down my nan's bushes, or flooding her garden, or escaping classes in primary school to play on the yard. Lol. My nan when she was here about healthy enough, would always ask me to go to church with her. And I did wonder for what? Through her eyes, I guess it was not to force her faith on me, but teach me the foundations of the path I began to walk a year and a half ago. (Even though my Nan was not consciously aware of this-and her prayers when I became "astray" really did help guide me to the REAL Christ, and I thank her)

As I entered my teenage years and went along with the croud, religion became completely irrelevant, as if you were religious, you would be rediculued, I know Britain seems far more secular than America, so I guess it is the opposite out there-many youth maybe religious?.

At the age of 15, I began to become interested in Witchcraft, just the magick, not honouring the god and goddess throug nature-and her seasons. I remember doing my first spell and how it drained me, so was this due to sending out too much light? Or a imposted of the "God and Goddess" taking my light. I began to grow more knowledgeable of Paganism, and felt the need to "chose" or move towards Pagan practice.

This was very difficult because of the mental box I was in, and the illusion shrouding me, I felt scared if God and Christ were ever the other end and would punish me for leaving the faith and practicing a "devil given faith", and I remember being slightly upset that if I were to become Pagan, I would be in a land of eternal summer, and my folks in a "remote" heaven-so seperation, this clearly seperated me further from Apollo and Isis/or/Kali.

This seperation was so difficult to overcome, even though it was just an illusion, but the call of the Goddess was so strong, I eventually succumbe to the practice of Paganism and Witchcraft which honoured both father and mother, and this balance helped me feel at peace and in harmony again. And this came to me "chosing" the entities I wanted to work with, not them coming to me when I meditate and meet "one of them" at the end of a path-such as at a tree, or throne-which appears to be what my teacher taught me to do (In his training guides).

I recall chosing the God's/Goddesses: Ra. Apollo. Horus. Hecate. Isis. Diana. Pan. Thoth and another Egyptian deity of Medicine and magick. As I spoke more and more to Cindy, discovering the group on myspace, I began to feel a great resistance towards Apollo, I know Isis and Diana are Elohim, but I was drawn to their imposters attributes-like them being Goddeses of healing, love, sex, magick, protection, fertility, of witches you name it, lol.

Back in my early Pagan weeks going from Imposter Apollo of Psychic Power, Prophecy, Bisexuality, Music, and Medicine, to Elohim Apollo - A God of Wisdom. I felt he was a "bland deity" and was drawn towards the egyptian Thoth as a false god of wisdom as I recall Cindy telling me.

Being trapped in Anti-Christianity mindset that some Pagans and Witches have because of the burning times-and the churches ignorance about the faiths, I felt so much anger about and at Christ, and when I saw Christ and Mother Mary were working with "Elohim" via. rosaries/and their sites, it shattered my illusions that they were all seperate entities/religions with no same "afterlife", and began to feel their light and love as I did more and more rosaries bringing light into a religion that STILL honours Apollo as a God of light, despite the "imposters vision" in some sects.

I still practice Magick, as every thought, feeling, action, is Magick, but I say Magick in a sense of consciously practicing it as a craft and art-with deities, such as I would change reality with Father Light from Apollo, and other Elohim such as Isis and Kali as I know them by Pagan names. They're such powerful deities, and I now feel the time has come for me to move onto another route-on our united path.

The time now I feel has come for me to practice mainly elements of Buddhism, still honouring I AM. I had conflicting thoughts earlier this evening about Christ being the Omega, and Buddha being the Alpha, and it hit me, the Ma-ter light is the Buddha Nature, the Omega polarity, which Christ represents, and being the Christ I believe is going to awaken others from their spiritual slumbers to the truth, and removing the suffering of others? And I have read Buddha's discourse that being a western Buddhist, is the polarity of eastern Buddhism which involves "countless hours of meditation", so it will be my duty, practicing Buddhism, to still be the Christ polarity of Buddha by going out into the world to challenge and awaken others, as he sends forth his light through me to help heal and raise their consciousness.

I performed the precepts of Buddhism which are five vows to the faith (Monastic Buddhists vow upon 10), and recited the three jewels:

I take refuge in the Buddha: Buddham Saranam Gacchami.
I take refuge in the Dharma: Dharmman Saranam Gacchami.
I take refuge in the Sangha: Sangham Saranam Gacchami.

And it felt "right", like it is meant to BE. So for the time, I am pleased in saying I will practice this path to help others and further unite our Sangha.

Brightest Blessings Everyone.I AM grateful for the ability to post my message. Thank You Janise and Cindy. I AM Mathew. xXx.

Posted: Tue Jun 23, 2009 4:50 pm Post subject:

Hi Mat. I somehow missed your post.

I remember that post you made in Spiritual Awakening, that was like 2 or 3 years ago. I think you wrote a question about Jesus and gods, and I responded and that's how we met Smile

For the last few years I have suspected that part of my Path has to do with raising the Light of Truth in all earths religions. That's why I've spent hours every day on forums all over the place and in many religions from Shamanism to Christianity. I don't see any religion as wrong or bad. All have a golden thread of truth, and there is so much mixed up in there with the duality, good vs evil is resident in them all. Did you know that there are levels of duality and you start to see that even duality vs. non-duality is dualistic? lol. That's a subject for another post though. Anyway, to spread Light, we focus on the Light and the Truth that is there, and then expand it and it spreads.

I know Apollo is very pleased with the Light of Truth you are adding to the pagan and Wiccan consciousness.We have Lightbearers incarnating into all of the worlds religions, and it's wonderful to see we are all waking up and bring our Light into them. Transcending the illusion of separation and coming into Oneness in Heart.

I know that Janise has the right idea too about how to spread the Light of Christ through all religions too. We have talked about how to do this. Some people just choose to close themselves off and see themselves as the only true way. That all else is "bad" and will hurt you, blah blah blah. That is so dualistic and separation consciousness. We are to build a Bridge, aren't we.

Oh, I think it was that to get along with all, and to start spreading some truth you focus on what we have in common. Then build the Bridge from there. Some people just dive in and judge and that just closes minds and closes doors.

Excellent post Mat. Thank you for sharing. I AM Grateful for you.

Christ Love,
Cindy